I left off with my last blog, asking myself this question.
As you know, if you read my previous blogging experience, I am and have been and continue to be in a period of waiting. I'm content with waiting, but I'm not content with being content. I know God has me where I am for a purpose -- far beyond what my earthly mind can conceive. And that was the idea behind my last blog, to conceive of even a portion of God's purpose and to perceive things the way He does during this time of my life.
Now I continue to struggle with the call to ministry and what should I do/where would God have me go next in order to serve Him? As my friend Meggan so gently put it, ever since she has known me I have constantly been seeking the next step from God. I don't think there is anything wrong with seeking, as long as I remain patient and wait for God's timing. As I said, I am satisfied with waiting and being patient. But I feel that God has a different long-term purpose for my life than what I face now, and that is what I intend to seek and find. You may have to help me with this whole patience thing ;-) Yes, that means I am asking you yet again (and since you were so helpful the first go-round!) to be my accountability partner. I'm not sure where exactly I'm going with this one, and it's probably not going to be a daily thing, but I do want to record my thoughts and experiences with God -- So be prepared to read a lot of confused ramblings of a heart that is struggling to be patient and faithful, yet earnestly seeking to find and respond to the call of God on her life.
So what's next? I don't know. But these verses are my life verses during this time of seeking(you'll probably recognize them as general themes from my last blog attempt), and I pray that God will not let my spirit sleep nor neglect His word and His call...
Acts 26:16
Now get up and stand on your feet. I have appeared to you to appoint you as a servant and as a witness of what you have seen of me and what I will show you.
Ephesians 6:13
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
I'm standing up. I'll attempt patience, but I'm not waiting. I'm going to pursue God -- this is my commitment. And when I have done everything I can do to seek His will and purpose for me, then I will continue to wait on Him, and to stand, strong and in His power.
And my plan of action, simple (but not so much as it seems):
Psalm 119:15-16
I meditate on your precepts and consider your ways.
I delight in your decrees; I will not neglect your word.
